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Another year goes by....   
02:19pm 04/01/2010
mood: apathetic

and the more I promise myself I'm gonna change, the more I know I'm just going to stay the same. Made the same old resolutions, eat healthier, work out more, be happier...yadda yadda yadda. I have all good intentions to keep up with them just as I do each and every year, though if I follow the examples of years past my resolutions are just gonna fizzle and die. Well with the small exception of me finding a new job in 2010. Just stared my last week at a job that I loved to hate.

I've got very mixed feelings about this week, it felt like it was never gonna arrive, and the BOOM there it is. I'm happy to end this chapter of my life, it was a good job pay and benefits wise. It just wasn't something I could see me doing happily for the rest of my life. So I have the opportunity to find something, hopefully that I do want to do for the rest of my life. I'm not exactly gonna hold my breath on that prospect, but it always helps to keep a positive attitude right?

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Growing a backbone   
11:21pm 22/11/2009
mood: numb
Well, hopefully I am. Just had what can be classified as a shitty week-end. I do not know a lot but after spending a few hours mulling my life over I know one thing. I'm not going to stay in a toxic relationship. I deserve better than being talked to like a piece of shit, I do not need to have crap thrown at me. I'm throwing down a gauntlet that should have been laid a while ago. Shawn NEEDS anger management or I'm done. I have no idea what the hell is gonna come from this, but to preserve myself I gotta throw it down. I do not need to feel fear in my own house, I do not need to be falling back into old destructive patterns myself. I've come too far to just fall back. I don't know what I'm gonna do if he refuses. I'll be without a job and without a home. Scary prospect, but no more scary than not knowing whats gonna be the next thing to set Shawn off and get thrown around the house.
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Just one more time to kill the pain.   
04:32am 22/11/2009
mood: numb
I've come to realize just how seriously fucked in the head I am. I'm impressed that with all the crap in my life that I deal with that I'm not some hard core drug addict or alcoholic. But I've got my own way of dealing with it, just as unhealthy and I know it too. That's the fucked up part. But still I do it, can't take the emotional bullshit...and well I can just make it go away and no one's the wiser. I've become a great liar about it, no one knows and no one cares. Not that anyone cared in the first place. As long as I'm there to pick them up, listen to their bullshit, and be a willing target who the fuck cares what else happens to me. I proved my point tonight, that's for damn sure.
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Well I'll be damned   
11:20pm 26/03/2009
  My livejournal account is still active despite my being totally inactive.  
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Moving too fast to keep up   
12:49am 23/04/2007
mood: blah
It just seems like everytime I seem to get back on track in some way, I always find a way to fall behind again. Just started to get the bills under control and work slacks off for Shawn a bit with this lull in his field. Just started saving up to get ready to buy a house in maybe 6-8 months. Guess what my parents follow my advice and look into a different real estate company. The guy says he's got a potential buyer who would want us out by the end of May. Finally kicked the nick habbit but gained about 15 pounds. Shawn and I finally went to go see a doctor, but found out because we have an HSA he's not covered nor is our medicine til our decutible of 3k is met. To top this all off our ex-roomie Buddha has vanished along with our phone......so yeah life seems to be coming at me way too fast to keep up. -sighs-
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We're comin for the Colts   
01:11pm 30/01/2007
  Bear down, Chicago Bears, make every play clear the way to victory;
Bear down, Chicago Bears, put up a fight with a might so fearlessly.
We'll never forget the way you thrilled the nation with your T-formation.
Bear down, Chicago Bears, and let them know why you're wearing the crown.
You're the pride and joy of Illinois, Chicago Bears, bear down!
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11:00pm 07/07/2006
mood: chipper
I've got no voice, the sox won yesterday, I'm happy as a pig in shit. That is all.
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Funny, Sad, but True   
11:10pm 22/04/2006
mood: bitchy
In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with broccoli, cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow and red vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives.

Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Creme Donuts. And Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?"

And Man said, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds. And Satan smiled.

And God created the healthful yogurt that Woman might keep the figure that Man found so fair. And Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. And Woman went from size 6 to size 14.

So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." And Satan presented Thousand-Island Dressing, buttery croutons and garlic toast on the side. And Man and Woman unfastened their belts following the repast.

God then said, "I have sent you heart healthy vegetables and olive oil in which to cook them." And Satan brought forth deep fried fish and chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter. And Man gained more weight and his cholesterol went through the roof.

God then created a light, fluffy white cake, named it "Angel Food Cake," and said, "It is good." Satan then created chocolate cake and named it "Devil's Food."

God then brought forth running shoes so that His children might lose those extra pounds. And Satan gave cable TV with a remote control so Man would not have to toil changing the channels. And Man and Woman laughed and cried before the flickering blue light and gained pounds.

Then God brought forth the potato, naturally low in fat and brimming with nutrition. And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into chips and deep-fried them. And Man gained pounds.

God then gave lean beef so that Man might consume fewer calories and still satisfy his appetite. And Satan created McDonald's and its 99-cent double cheeseburger. Then said, "You want fries with that?" And Man replied, "Yes! And super size them!" And Satan said, "It is good." And Man went into cardiac arrest.

God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery. Then Satan created HMOs.

Thought for the day ...... There is more money being spent on breast implants and Viagra today than on Alzheimer's research. This means that by 2040, there should be a large elderly population with perky boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do with them ..:: Anonymous ::..
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Piss And Moan   
11:41pm 18/04/2006
mood: blah
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Stolen From Bansheefay   
12:54pm 08/04/2006
mood: geeky
Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List three events, two births and one death in your journal, including the year.

October 22.

362 The Temple of Appolo at Daphne, outside of Antioch, is destroyed in a mysterious fire.

1968 - Apollo program: Apollo 7 safely splashes down in the Atlantic Ocean after orbiting the Earth 163 times.

1975 - Gays in the military: US Air Force Tech Sergeant Leonard Matlovich, a decorated veteran of the Vietnam War, is given a general discharge after appearing in his Air Force uniform on the cover of Time magazine with the headline (printed in all uppercase) "I Am A Homosexual."


1920 - Timothy Leary, American writer and professor

1903 - Curly Howard, American actor and comedian


2000 - Rodney Anoai, professional wrestler
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Friends Only   
11:08pm 10/02/2004
mood: pissed off
The buck stops here, someone outside of my lj friends has been reading my lj and using my writings to try to get me in trouble at work. So guess what, if you're not on my friends list TOUGH FUCKING SHIT!!!
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